as usual, i'm busy.

[hah.. busy with the zoo.]

actually, i was sleepy a while ago. i just got awake again because of my thoughts. whoa..

no, seriously.. i was sick during first friday - and it struck during the mass. nice, huh? like, i needed to walk out of the gym to the clinic ALONE for medication. and why was i sick? well, how about too much stress on iii-salome?

[stupid.. i forgot what happened last monday and tuesday. LOL. oh, i know.. i was still sick. but i went to class.]

hyacinth had their retreat wednesday to friday last week. we'll be having it wednesday to friday this week. [and that makes me happy because?? oh, i don't know really.]

change topic. was there a time you had that sickening feeling in your stomach because of a certain event? probably, yeah.. but it's the first time i got it. i mean a while ago, i sorta cut 5 minutes to give a letter in ii-veronica - thru abby, for.. you guessed it, ms. adel. [good thing is, i'm the president.. i take care of the class.. they do NOT mind if i go out. bad thing is, if the teacher - sir cenon in this case - will arrive. [why does the next subject have to be trigonometry anyway??] something about the thing i wanted to tell her, like, weeks ago. it's distracting me too much, so i want her to know before our retreat, so there are less distractions. [now i remember why i told you our retreat schedule.. really.] i'm not saying that she's a distraction, but this situation were into right now is. it's not about the (former) student-teacher relationship, but about a particular happening. [the word event is just too formal. and hey, did i just apply our grammar lesson in that sentence?] fine, i'll elaborate it.. as always. [i think i gotta tell you this again.. pink-ms. adel, aqua-me, yellow-abby.]

*knock, knock..* (vero door.. then i open it.) miss, can i inter.. interra.. interrupt your class for a while. [yeah, i was stuttering. i planned to go there, but i dunno what got into me. weird.]

oh, sure. [okay.. i have no idea if she was being sarcastic, if she wants to annoy me, or if that's her real reaction. she was never happy if someone interrupted her; well, at least before, maybe. either way, she's creeping me out.]

i'll just excuse abby for a while.

abby..

what?

close the door. (deep breath..) okay, that took a lot of guts. and i'm shaking.

yeah, i see. hey, sorry. i wasn't able to go to salome, the bell already rang. [i told her to look for me there, because of this.]

i know. well, forget it. i need you to give this letter. you know already to whom, obviously. but when you go inside, don't make her see it.

okay.. how about the flicker meeting later? [announced that morning..]

oh, that.. i'm not really sure. but you gotta attend that meeting. they said "all staffers" and your name's in the staff box. tell gabbi.

so, when will i give this to her?

after your class. make sure she reads it. i still have a class.. err, zoo.. to attend to.

alright.

thanks. (opens the door.. again.) thank you miss.

you're welcome. [yup.. she replied. VERY unusual. and, oh, was she smiling??]

yup.. i was shaking before AND after that. [i arrived in salome with no teacher in sight.. until 5 minutes after that.] after.. as in, after 20 minutes, i'm still shaking. that's the worst i had so far. imagine your right arm, shaking during ONE of your best subjects (trigo), you want to recite.. but if you raise your arm up, you and your armchair might fall down and/or you do something uncontrollable. thank you.. i survived it. i think..

good mornin' world! [1 day before retreat.. are you ready?]